Thursday, September 18, 2014

The Struggle is Real

I struggle with fear.  It frustrates me and makes me feel like a phony Jesus girl.  It makes me mad at myself.  However, the struggle is real...

It's not just any fear.  It's a fear of medical issues.  When I worry about medical issues, I get nauseous and can't see straight.  It's not everyday like it used to be - so I suppose that's progress.

I used to worry nonstop about my little ones.  My oldest was born with some congenital heart issues that had to be corrected surgically.  Could that have caused my issue?  Maybe...

But for whatever reason, it seems to get me every time.  I get so frustrated. 

When I am experiencing this, I feel so angry with myself.  I really do love Jesus and trust Him.  Then I question myself...if I trust Him, why am I so fearful??  And then I feel like I have completely disappointed Him...again.

I have been thinking about this recently and have been praying for clarity.  Is this the thorn in my side??  As I was praying, I remembered a sermon I once heard about being discouraged.  Numerous times in the Bible, God tells us not to be discouraged.  He reminds us that He is with us and will fight for us. 

I started thinking about this and realized that I must not be alone.  God knows that we crazy humans will be discouraged and fearful.  He knows that we need reminding again and again and again that He really is with us and is fighting for us.

Jesus knows my heart and He knows yours.  He knows that we love Him and He knows that we struggle.  Your struggle may not be my struggle, but we all struggle with something...pride, anxiety, perfectionism, fear of fitting in, etc.

I think it's important not to beat ourselves up over it.  I think we have to try hard not to give in to it.  However, when we do give in to it we have to remember to cry out to Him for help.  He knows us better than we know ourselves. 

We must to remember that Jesus has not called us to be perfect.  He has called us to love Him and to rely upon Him. 

Our struggles are real and He knows it.  I have to trust and believe that He loves me despite me.


Monday, September 15, 2014

Oops!! Wrong Pinterest account...

I was browsing around my blog and clicked on my Pinterest link and lo and behold I was sent to someone else's account.  The name was Marci Smith but it wasn't me.  I had someone set up my blog a long time ago and never checked my links.  Yikes!!!

if you have followed me on Pinterest from my blog page, it's not really me.  Oops!  I have corrected the link and it will take you to the correct me now.  :)  Honestly, I wondered why my follower numbers were so low and rarely changed.  Maybe now I know...

I'm a bit nervous to browse around the other Marci Smith's page.  I hope I have been represented well! Ha!!

Hope everyone is having a great day!!

Journaling ideas

I have always wanted to be a someone who kept a journal.  The idea of it seemed so...well, neat.  However, I would start a journal but within a few weeks I would be done. 

I thought journaling meant writing a description of my day.  It was booooooring!!  I have since learned that keeping a journal is fun and can be as creative as you want it to be. 

I decided - after pinning journal ideas from Pinterest, of course - to create my own journal.  It was fun and I loved the sense of accomplishment I felt when it was completed.

I started off by gathering various pieces of paper from our craft closet.  I wasn't concerned with matching, but with finding colors and patterns that I liked.

I decided the size journal I wanted and then I cut each piece of paper to match that size.  Once all of the papers were cut, I decorated each piece with a scrap of paper, sticker, etc.  After all of the papers were complete, I punched holes in each one and tied ribbon to hold it together.  It's pretty basic, but I love it! :)

Here is what it looks like...

My first journal entry began yesterday.  I wrote down things from church that touched my heart.

Thinking of a topic to journal about can be tricky sometimes.  Here is a list that I have come up with...
  • Things from church
  • Things I love
  • Songs I'm singing
  • Fall loves
  • My smiles come from...
  • Favorite books
  • Books I want to read
  • Favorite skincare products
  • Fall goals
  • Top 5 movies
  • Summer memories
  • What would I do with an extra $100
  • Favorite outfits
  • What I do with me time
  • What I did today
  • Things on my heart
  • Scriptures that are speaking to me
  • Answered prayers
  • Prayer requests
  • Who I'm praying for
  • Projects I want to take on
  • Family funnies
Journaling can be so much fun and it creates mementos for your family years from now.

Do you journal?  If so, what are some of your favorite topics?

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Where was God on 9/11?

September 11th always tugs at my heart strings.  I can remember exactly where I was when I began to realize what was happening in America.  My heart still breaks for all of those directly impacted by the sheer evilness.  I am certain it always will.

My family and I love New York City.  My husband and I lived on Long Island when our oldest was little.  We have fond memories of our visits to NYC and the people we met.  Our time there was prior to the attacks.  We were fortunate in that we were able to see the beauty of the Twin Towers.  We also stayed in the Marriot hotel that was connected to the towers.  I have memories of Jorden, then age 1, running around the fountain between the towers over and over and over again.  I can vividly picture the people sitting near the fountain eating their lunches.  The way they looked at our little one running around without a care in the world still puts a smile on my face and a tear in my heart.  I wonder, were those sweet faces lost on September 11th?

My heart not only aches for NYC, but for those at the Pentagon, in Pennsylvania, and the people on the planes.  So, so many people....

This past summer, we traveled to NYC and Washington, D.C.  We visited the memorial museum in NYC and the memorial at the Pentagon.  So, so many people...

The question I have heard numerous times is...Where was God when this evil was overtaking our country?

He was waiting for His people to call on Him, to realize that He is desperately needed.

Let me put this out there right now.  I do not believe that the people killed on 9/11 deserved it.  In no way do I believe that they should have died.  It is absolutely devastating and heart breaking.  They just happened to be where evil struck.

I believe with all of my heart that Jesus was with the victims.  I know He was devastated to see evil.  John 11:35 states that Jesus wept as Mary poured her heart out to Him about Lazarus's death.  I believe Jesus wept on September 11th, too.  How could He not have??  His children were experiencing horror, terror, death, and devastation. 

So, again we ask...Where was God?  How could He have allowed this to happen??

God is being pushed out of our country.  He hears the message loud and clear...You are not wanted or needed here.

America has-
  • Taken prayer out of school and any schooling event.
  • Said it is ok to kill innocent babies.
  • Changed God's definition of marriage.
  • Decided that hooking up is acceptable and the right thing to do.  (Hooking up-having sex with anyone and everyone.)
  • Decided that it is perfectly acceptable to be entertained by things that break God's heart.

God is love-total and uninhibited love.  However, He is not pushy.  He gave His children free will.  He does not want us to love Him because He forces us to.  He wants us to love Him because we want to, because we know with all of our hearts that He is our Savior and we desperately need Him. 

God is not a Jeanie in a bottle that is taken out when people need something.  We cannot put Him in a neat and tidy box that fits nicely with our lives.  He is not here to serve us.  Rather, we should be serving Him with reverence and pure love.

Deuteronomy 11:26-28...Look, today I set before you a blessing and a curse:  there will be a blessing if you obey the commands of the Lord your God I am giving you today, and a curse if you do not obey the commands of the Lord your God and turn aside from the path I command you today by following other gods you have not known.

As a country, we are not choosing God.  Sadly, He has been pushed aside.  It is time to drop to our knees in prayer for our country.  We must pray diligently for hearts to return to God.  We must pray for hearts to break over things that don't honor Him.  We can no longer live in our quiet suburban neighborhoods and think it is the government's job to protect us.  We have to stand for God and for His ways.  We can no longer turn a blind eye to His ways and be complacent with what is happening in our country.

So the question to me is not where was God on 9/11, but where were we as a country?

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Want to join a Pinterest board?

I have a confession...
I am a Pinterest junkie. I pin loads of recipes and have redone my entire house. 

Ok-my actual house isn't redone, but my boards on Pinterest are loaded with ideas and pictures that would make my house amazing! :)

I am creating a board titled, "Inspiration to be a Jesus girl" and am looking for other Jesus gals to pin blog posts, inspirational quotes, and funny and inspiring stories.  

All you have to do is send me an email at telling me that you want to join. Once I receive the email, I will send you an invitation. After that, it will be happy pinning for you. This is a way for your blog to gain exposure and to inspire others to follow and love Jesus. 

I am looking forward to spreading His love with others through Pinterest!

My heart belongs to fall

I L-O-V-E fall!  It is my absolute favorite time of year. About this time every year, I get pretty pumped up. I have flashbacks of cool weather and sweater time from the previous year. Did I mention that I love fall? :)

My top ten favorite things about fall....

  • Changing leaves
  • The cool air that blows across my face when I walk outside
  • Sweaters
  • Boots
  • Snuggling on the couch with a super soft blanket
  • Football games
  • Pumpkin everything
  • Soup
  • Approaching holiday season
  • Raking leaves as a family and taking great pictures
Are you a fall lover?  If so, what are your favorite things?


Sharing 101

A question I hear a lot from others is...

How do I share Jesus with those around me?

We know that we are to share Him, but none of us wants to be the-throw Jesus in someone's face- person.

Most of us, if not all of us, have come across someone who uses His name in every.single.sentence.

News flash...that can be a BIG turn off.  I know because it has happened to me.  I love Jesus with all of my heart, my soul, my mind, and anything else I am made up of.  I desire daily to please Him and live for Him.  However, when someone can't have a conversation without using His name the entire time, it comes across as fake, holier than thou, and pretty self righteous.

I'm just being honest...

So the question remains-

How do we share Jesus with those around us without turning people off and ultimately turning them away from their Savior??

I have prayed about this and asked Jesus to show me how to share Him without making others feel uncomfortable.  I want people to truly want Jesus in their lives.  I desire for people to KNOW Him and love Him.  I don't want to be the one who turns people away from Him.  That would break my heart and, more importantly, His.

Jesus answered my prayer in the form of a sermon I recently heard.  The pastor said the greatest way to share Jesus is to LOVE everyone around us.  Truly love people with kindness, compassion, and selflessness.  Take that extra moment to let someone know that they matter.

This sermon took me back about 10 years.  A woman whom I had known about a year asked me why I was always so nice.  She asked how I could have so much joy.  I was able to answer her honestly and tell her Jesus was my reason.  This led into a great conversation about His love for her and His desire for her to truly know Him. 

We are called to plant the seeds of love and Jesus will grow them.  He wants us to be kind and loving to His children.  We are to share Him by sharing our hearts.

Let's be purposeful in sharing Jesus today and everyday.  :)

1 John 3:18
We must not love with word or speech, but with truth and action.

Loving all of you-